Here we start with another channeling. It is a good time in the
year for the inward tuning playing meditation. It is a very illogical
combination for most of you. How can you go inward tuning yourself
and play at the same time? Or how can you play and do serious
work? Here we would say that playing is a way of being with yourself.
I am not talking about pretending or lets pretend or use your
imagination to create a world where you are a hero escaping the
responsibilities of every day life. It is just a part of being,
a part of being creative, a part of your young child inside yourself
who acts with joy, play and ease. Let you become like children
again, open eager to listen to the source with the connection
aware, alive and awake for daily guidance and fine tuning of being,
of expression yourself.
Sit right up, feet flat upon the floor. Make sure that you have
it cozy and warm. Some incense and candles will highlight the
atmosphere, some soft music is playing at the background. You
have some other music close by just in case.
You are acquainted with going to your heart. You do it.
You are in your heart, instead of going to the garden you look
for a stair a light upwards at the right side of your heart (left
side when you are left handed with writing). You knock on the
door. If the door opens immediately, congratulations, you have
the trust of the inner child of you (or the anger). If you have
to play a door game to get permission to open this door, just
do it. Don?t get hasty, adult like, knowing better behavior and
so on. Here you don?t know anything, you come to visit in a country
not your own, it was, but it isn?t anymore. So obey the rules
inside you.
When the door opens, bow your head in gratitude and say thank
you. See what is around you, it can be a little room with a tea-party,
a playing field outside, a playground, a forest with terrific
trees for climbing or a desert (in case of anger or a joke). When
it is raining or it is grey and dull, ask for the reason and listen.
Give all your attention, your compassion, your gratitude and excuses
when needed (when sincere).
Start to play with the child who is inside you, inside the room,
the field outside, wherever you are at that moment. Take your
time, play silly games, play jokes, play hide and seek, explore
together what is there and what binds you. When the child is satisfied,
ask what kind of gift you can offer this child. Give it a hug,
a cherishing, a kiss on the cheek. Lay on the grass together,
start to watch the clouds drifting by or the stars falling or
the ceiling moving with butterflies. Then, only then after a while,
looking and enjoying, ask your question: why you do this kind
of mediation: fine tuning yourself with playing at the same time.
See how the child (you) next to yourself reacts on your request.
Maybe she or he stands up and takes you along with him by your
hand to another stair down (you didn?t notice before). Maybe nothing
happened. Just remember the process is important not the outcome
of this meditation. When playing is the time issue, it is. When
getting befriended is the issue, it is good also (you could have
done it earlier in life, it is good as it is). So when the time
is right, she or he will take you along with you to the other
stair down. He knocks 3 times and asks permission to pass the
door: "only children and there friends are welcome to pass. Here
I take along with me, my friend of ages, my companion in life
by whom I feel safe and secure, who will listen to my pleas and
who accepts my guidance" With these words the door opens.
You walk together down the steps and come in a room filled with
purple light. This room of the violet flame will wash and clean
you from obligations, expectations and responsibilities that are
not yours but accepted from outside. "When we become like children
and become a listening ear, we can listen to the source within
us. I accept the washing and cleaning so I become like this child
and stay myself as the One whom I Am." With this you step side
by side in the purple flame. This is the first cleaning.
The child opens the door to the next room. Here you see the rose
flame of virtue, courage and joyous being. "I accept these properties
as being part of me. With this acceptance I release all that isn?t
necessary anymore. You handed over your backpack with victimhood,
thoughts of failure, thoughts of not being good enough, regrets
over past decisions to the child next to you. The child flings
it in to the rose flame and takes you in to very flame. Take some
time to feel the flame, to feel the love and strength inside it,
feel how it comes inside you, feel how you feel yourself. This
is the second cleansing.
Next to this room, you see a beautiful garden and the other flame
inside this garden. This flame is white with gold sparkles, with
fluorescent purple, green, orange, yellow, indigo sparkles. When
you come more often the colors may vary to different ones, with
different qualities you like to experience at that time, appropriate
for that moment. The third and last cleansing concerns your thought
patterns: you open your mind and give away to all the flowers,
the birds in the air the ideas of not being of godlike nature,
the thoughts of limited existence, you lay down your feelings
of ending, your illusions about life and how it is and how it
should be. See how the flowers will take these and drop themselves
in the flame. See how the birds take your thoughts and they fly
to the flame and they drop it also in the flame. See how it melts
away and nothing is left over. Feel refreshed and know you are
free of them.
Next you lay down your clothes, your beliefs who you are, what
you are and what you should like to become. Naked (no being minds
and the child doesn?t mind at all) you step side by side into
the flame of being. Here you only are.
You and the child melt together into one being, into one ARE,
ONE IS, One IS ALL, I AM ONE.
When this happens a spiral, a vortex, comes out of the floor and
takes you high to your Soul level. Arrived while played with the
turmoil, the sparkles, the energies, the wind in your hair, the
energies passing by and through you, you look around, see all
with both eyes of you, the one you are.
While you are at the existence of your being, the one you are,
you ask for the fine tuning of your being, a fine tuning to your
source, your soul, your very being in the infinitive.
With this direct connection to it ALL you are ready to go when
the child in you is ready to leave, when the playing is over.
Stay and play as long as it takes. Maybe it is fine to go over
to the library of your life and start to read some books aloud
to the child in you. These are the wisdom books of your life and
all of your lives, all the ones that are necessary for this very
particular life. Ask some guidance when you feel you like to have
some. Be careful, guidance isn?t free. You could promise yourself
to listen to it and follow it when you are back to yourself. At
least say thank you to your soul and keep the wisdom close at
heart in your heart.
Say goodbye in gratitude, when you feel it is time for it. And
step in the vortex going down, feel the energy, the winds through
you.
Down in the garden, you step out and listen to the child about
playing or going back to the room where you have met each other.
Walk through the rose flame, through the violet flame, to the
steps up into the garden, the playground, room.
Sit there for a moment quiet together. Feel the experience you
had together, and see the child leaving your energy while letting
one part with you to join you during your daily life. Ask what
the child needs at this moment, putting to bed or a relaxing chair,
a night time prayer. And ask what part you need as nourishment
so your connection together will stay enjoyable in oneness. Say
goodbye with hugs and kisses. Take the door you used as entrance,
promise to come back regularly.
You are back in your heart again. Give thanks to yourself, the
other part of yourself you have met today when you contemplate
at the altar of your being. See the white sparkle flame inside
you and place it on the altar too. While you leave the room of
your heart back to your daily life, look behind yourself and see
the whole room lit with this flame and see the walls of your heart
becoming transparent. See also the door becoming transparent,
the door to your garden, the door to the child. See the lightest
contours of other doors coming available to you right now for
the next mediation.
Enough is enough for today. You step out the room of your heart
and you know that you take one part of it with you to your daily
life as you take the other gifts of today along with you. You
also know that with these gifts and the parts you have given to
the child, to the Soul level, to the different flames, you are
existing on all the levels. With these parts of you at all levels,
you are in tune with all these levels, when you are aware of it.
With these levels as part of your daily life you have fine tuned
yourself to their existence, their guidance, their energy.
You go back to your daily life the way you already know of, and
the way you are used too. Along you take with you the remembrance
and parts of all levels you visit. With each visit you fine tune
your connection with all levels and your relationship with all,
especially with the child inside you, your guide to existence
upon Soul level.
With a thank you for yourself upon all levels, you thank yourself
for the gift you have given yourself today.
It is good to sit a while in quiet solitude to feel the integration
of this mediation in your being. During the next days keep your
eyes and ears open for some changes in you and see if you can
feel a difference in being guided.
Enjoy your connection.
In time, when the connection is being lost a bit inside you because
you lost your awareness of it, come back to do this mediation
again. Or plan to maintain this meditation until it is a strong
connection which can?t be easily shaken by 3d circumstances.
With love,
Ashtar